Heylo daily readers. Sorry for the long absence. I have alot to update and talk about. Things had been going all way round. Up down, right left and front back. Yet, i am still standing strong.

It was such a bad experience to faint in public. Thursday, i woke up in the morning having diarrhoe. I thought, the pain in my stomach are normal stomachache, so i took dhacophan, to eas the pain. I stayed in the toilet for more than 30 minutes but i still could not get the satisfaction to release myself. The pain gets stronger. I almost fell in the toilet when i am making my way out. I ate a slice of bread. Before i could finish the whole piece, i rushed to the toilet again, now, vomitting my lungs out. I could feel my head spinning. So i lie down on the sofa and fell asleep.

A few hours i wake up to get ready for tuition at admiralty. The pain was killing me and i move very slowly. Then i realise, i am late. So i paced faster. I took the train to admiralty. In the train, my head spins harder! HAHHA. When i got out of the train, this man pushed me, waahhh! the impact, i tell you...! CANNOOTTT DESCRIBE LAH~

I stood on the escalator, realising, im gasping for air already, my vision became blur and lalalalalala, i fell on the escalator. AHAHAH. I could hear a malay man voice, reciting the Selawat into my ears. I felt as if, im dying soon. THEN, when i open my eyes, im in a room.They gave me hot milo, they put fan in front of my face. I could feel tears rolled down my cheeks. I clenched my right fist, then i squeeze my tummy with my left hand. IT WAS DAMN PAINFUL. I cried.
I waited dad to arrive and accompany me to the doctor.


FROM THAT DAY, TILL TODAY, MAMA COOKED PORRIDGE WITH MINCED CHICKEN FOR ME. I CAN ONLY PUT KICAPPPPPP for my SEASONING!


Yesterday, went prawning with love and his Mac'Ds friends. It was my VIRGIN experience to go for FISHING. Prawn fishing. Love, disturbed me when he got the Prawns already. When, throwing the bait, i do. When pulling out, when i saw the thing moving, love do. HAHAHA. I enjoyed the day, but, mama was not in a good mood for some reasons.

Congrats to my second sis for the silver in PSK.
Im sorry i could not watch your finals.






Love,
I miss the pakcik that i fell in love with. The one that i can look into the eye and utter 'I love you'. The one that i cared so much, even if a drop of you blood ooze out. I miss you alot. For everything that happened during this ride, it makes me stronger than yesterday. If only i could tell you how much i love you, how much i don't wanna lose you and how much i cudden bear to hear you comparing me to else, i would.

Im sorry, i wasnt myself the past days, i was so dissapointed in you. I simply find, every single guys are the same. No difference. From now onwards, tell me anything that i do, that make you sad, that you mind, that you don't like. Don't hide it love.

If its my fault, or yours, we solve it and face it together, not only you to keep and hide the feelings.



I love you.